thanks...

Dear God

Being a single parent is not easy... single mother  is a  tedious job,,, it is the most loving job but also some times frustrating... i know  am sounding bit selfish.. but yes i do dream of living a day in my  life of just me.. just me.. a life of nicky.. forgetting about everything.. just me and only me... but i know its not possible.. i dont feel regret.. but yes there is a longing in my heart..
i want to get drenched in rains, want to play with water and snow, want to gift myself with flowers.. want to write write and write... and of course want to hold hands of someone and talk talk and talk... want to speak my heart out.. want to be loved .. want to be feel special...want to dressed up.. want to apply sindoor, want to wear mangalsutra..
i know all this will never happen.. but i have no regrets.. this is what my heart wants.. but i know my heart loves naman more than me.. and being just mother all my life is big reward for me.. writing makes me happy so just pen it down so as make myself feel better.. after all paper and pen have been my best friend for life.. thanks God for giving me such a lovely son.. but yes in next birth do write a one page for me also.. thanks ..